I don't know. All I knew was my contract was up in 3 months and I wanted to move back East to be closer to Z. I was burned out and jaded and lon and I didn't need more money.
It's not exactly the same, but I know a little something about feeling aimless and needing change, and not knowing exactly what. I let myself stall out, which is not something I recommend. We might be in an apocalypse but that doesn't mean you can't take some time to think about what you need.
To be honest, I don't know what that is, other than that I need my kid to have some safety and stability. It's probably too late for me, but I can help make sure she has a good life.
That's all very noble and selfless, you're obviously a great Dad, but it's also bullshit. Too late for you? Too late for you would have been Day 1 being your last. Take this all as an opportunity to figure it all out, Niko. I am.
It's not bullshit. A surgeon's prime is ages 45-50, so I only have a couple good years left before I go downhill, if I make it that long. And I have medical issues and expired medicine that also complicates things. The odds are not in my favour. I'm not trying to be a bummer, I'm being a realist. Statistics and probability, dude. I'm currently trying to keep up with people half my age, but decline is inevitable.
I'm glad you're figuring it out, though. You have time for a whole second act. You're what, like 30?
Sure, but you're alive right now. My point was that this is an opportunity to find something different for yourself if you want to. I think we all need to be realistic about what we can do in this new world, but it doesn't preclude you from having a good life, whatever than means. I'm sorry that you have some medical issues that will only make things more difficult, I get that I don't know anything about your life.
It would be selfish of me to do anything different than what I'm doing now. People are always going to need rescuing or healing or whatever, so I can't just say no, you can die 'cause I'm not feeling it today.
That's young! And you won't be. You're smart. You're resilient. You're ambitious. I'm kind of a stupid idiot, in case you haven't noticed.
It would and I think we'd all appreciate it if our only doctor continued to be that, but I moreso was talking about finding something for yourself beyond duty. What do you like that isn't healing and screaming in the forest?
I can't imagine we have that much of an age difference. You're not a stupid idiot but I really wish people would stop apologizing to me. I think there's something in water other than a virus.
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and lonand I didn't need more money.DM, 10/24
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I'm glad you're figuring it out, though. You have time for a whole second act. You're what, like 30?
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I'm 38. And like you, I could be dead tomorrow.
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That's young! And you won't be. You're smart. You're resilient. You're ambitious. I'm kind of a stupid idiot, in case you haven't noticed.
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Sorry to get all existential on you.
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I can't imagine we have that much of an age difference. You're not a stupid idiot but I really wish people would stop apologizing to me. I think there's something in water other than a virus.
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I'm 8 years older than you. My bones are crumbling to dust as we speak.
SorryOkie dokie.DM, 10/24
Sounds like you need more calcium, doctor.
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Oh yeah, definitely. I'm deficient in vitamins and minerals nobody's even heard of.
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I did hear that vitamin deficiency was the new fad. That'll definitely impress the youths.
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Maybe if I tell them they'll look like me if they don't take their vitamins, that'll work.